random anxiety thoughts, self hateits funny how everyone tells me im great and nice and all that and yet ppl regularly leave me/break contact with me because i'm too negative or too annoying or or or or
im a fucking terrible person and a socially incompetent piece of shit that ruins everything they touch
im surprised im able to interact here without constantly being as anxious as usually, ive never managed to handle social groups well
random anxiety thoughts, self hatei used to be semi active on a bigger discord server and i genuinely liked being there and i thought the people liked me too and suddenly people started talking to me less and ghosting me and ignoring me on the server too... i was going insane and anxious bc of that
but oh well, wouldnt be the first time it happens and wont be the last
random anxiety thoughts, self hateim sorry if we're friends and i don't talk a lot to you/rarely talk to you
i swear it's not your fault, i am probably anxious about not talking to you and then more anyious bc of thaz and it gets exponentially worse and i just feel like shit and ruin all of my relationships
random anxiety thoughts, self hatei dont deserve talking to ppl honestly im a fucking worthless piece of trash, nothing more then a dumb useless attention whore
honestly if i just disappeared from the internet a bunch of ppl would notice but also wouldnt know what happened and would forget eventually
if i randomly moved away or sth irl, realistically actually noone would notice or care and most likely at least a few people would be happy
random anxiety thoughts, self hateits funny... i can hear positive stories etc and i feel anxious bc i'll never have that. i hear negative/cruel stories and my brain tells me i deserve that. people try to be nice to me and make me happy and my brain tells me it's all lies and fake or i manipulated them. and if i get insulted my brain sais it's an understatement what they're saying...
